Monday, May 17, 2010

Looking for a miracle

    I just recently went through a great trial, and what seemed like a very long journey in life. My sister in law, Bonnie passed away with cancer. We received the news about a year ago that the doctors had found cancer. I remember calling her as soon as I got the news. I was going to be a great wall of support to her. I remember hearing her voice on the other phone and not knowing what to say. I just said hi hon. It is me. I just heard the news.. I am so sorry. The next thing I know I am the one that is getting the support and the comfort. I remember saying to her. “ I am so sorry. I was going to be a great support for you. And look at me. “ She just kind of chuckled and with her comforting and soothing voice said. That is ok Baby... We will get through this. We pray for a miracle. If God choses to heal me Great.. If he takes me. It is ok. I know where I am going. With many trials and battles that she endured. She never complained. We prayed for a miracle. Lord please heal her was our cry..... We prayed for that great miracle. What we wanted was for God to heal her completely. The thought of losing this very special women who we all loved dearly was more then we could bare. She was our love and support when we needed her. She was always there when we were down and we needed that special word or just that beautiful smile of hers. We never wanted her to go.
On April 25th. Our very special angel went up to be with her heavenly father. Many asked why God.. Why did you not answer our prayers and give us this miracle we prayed for?
Many prayed Thank You Jesus for being with her through this. Many of us were without words and were full of mixed emotions.
    When I sit back and I think and remember times with her. She was our miracle in life. We prayed for a miracle. And we did not get it. Sometimes God's answer is no. But why? She use to tell me that just a little longer with us was a miracle. The doctors originally said only a couple of months. She was with us about a year. That was a miracle in itself. But it was not the miracle that we hoped and prayed for. I have learned though this that many times we pray for a miracle and we do not think that we get it. But in the end when God does not give us a miracle, He is using us to be someone else's miracle. Through out her battle with cancer. Bonnie was a blessing to everyone she came in contact with. Her smile and her calming words. The many times she shared her love and faith of being ok because she knew God was in control.

Jeremiah 29:11 says:

For I know that plans I have for you, declares the Lord.

He knew the exact plan he had for Bonnie and for us as her family. He used her as a miracle to many of our lives. In that same way, he is willing to use each and everyone one of us in the same way. He wants us to lean on him in time of need. He wants us to come to him with every little thing. God is crazy about us and he loves us. When a child goes to their parent with things. They sometimes say no because they know they have better for them. God knows everything about us and he only wants the very best for us. Lean on him and Trust that he is in control. I don't know about you. But I could not think of a better person to be in charge and control of my life.

Mark 10:27 With God all things are possible.

We can do all things through Christ who gives us strength.

God is in control. Won't you just lean on him today and trust and obey because there is no other way.

God never promised we would not go through storms in life.. But he does promise to go through them with us. Sometimes he holds our hand and walks with us. Other times he is the one that carries us.