Have you ever found your life in complete
turmoil? Have you ever found that life has put you in a whirl pool and you have
no idea how you got there?
This is exactly the place where I am
now. I sit here I look back and I see
that the main reason is because I forgot to trust. I trusted in God but not totally and
completely. I also got involved in trying to take care of things on my own.
I got involved in the everyday life. I settled for second best. I got involved
with my job and many things around me. I had to fix everything around me. I had
to tackle this world on my own because no one else was going to make it happen.
I neglected the important things around me. I had neglected my family, myself
and most importantly God.
Don’t get me wrong. I was there the
best I could be for my family. I did not totally let God go. I still believed
in him. I still took time to worship him and spend time with him. I neglected
him in other ways. I had no time to go to church because I was always working
weekends. I had no family time because I worked. I would come home from a bad
day and go to my room, so I would not take it out on my family. I needed to
work. I have to provide for my family. In the mist of everything I neglected so
much.
I became a person that I did not even know. I
had no patients with my children and others around me. I also could not stand
in the storms that I battled because I was not getting the fellowship needed to
grow. I had forgotten how to trust God. Trust that he would open the doors
needed to provide for the needs of myself and my family. Along that road I lost
many things. The bumps in the road were hard. It was like I was driving a car
with no tread in the tires. God brought me through many of those bumps. Without
him I would be in worse shape than I am now.
My neglect brought me to a complete
place of depression and health issues. A couple of weeks ago I had a couple of
deaths in the family. I was also under pressure for my job. I ended up breaking
down. I could not stop crying. I actually at one point had thoughts of driving
into a transport truck and ending it all. My actions had cost me much. I knew I had hit
rock bottom. I knew I needed help. My first question was where did that come
from? How did I get to this point?
The Doctor removed me from my job
because of the stress issues involved.
The bible says
Trust in the Lord with all your
heart, and don’t depend on your own understanding. Remember the Lord in all you
does, and he will give you success.
Proverbs 3: 5-6 (NCV)
I have forgotten to trust that God
is looking out for my best interests. He knows my needs. He knows my family’s
needs. I have neglected myself and so much more because I forgot. I am still not back to where I need
to be. I know however as I trust God he
will bring a complete healing to my life. He will bring complete success to my
life and he will use me in so many ways. I know that even with the stresses
involved in my job and my everyday life. He will meet my needs and he will
bring complete success and peace to my life.
I want to encourage you today. God is
the answer he will meet all your needs you only have to believe in him and
Trust.
